Tuesday, January 19, 2010

A new year, a new strength

Thank you, Harmony, for being my faithful friend. How sad that I'd almost forgotten my own blog... and being so wishy-washy about reading my favorites.
I just read my last post, and aside from being shocked that it was written in September(!), I was pretty bummed that I was so depressed. Of course, in reading it, I certainly understood why. However, I have some updates...
I am now working full-time for my hubby's foot doctor. It is a great job, and I really get to show off my organizational skills... this place was a disaster with the other girl running things (she's gone now). Bills weren't getting sent out, so we weren't getting money in, there were stacks of papers and charts all over the place like you wouldn't believe... just shoved in any available corner and covered with dust. Important information that hadn't been filed in over a year in patients' charts... it was unreal. Thank God, that kind of thing is right down my alley, and it's taken me almost 3 months to get (for the most part) the upper hand on things, along with (I'm not kidding) dozens of big garbage bags of shredded and useless paperwork and hours of rearranging. It's been very stressful doing all this while trying to run a Dr.'s office, but I have to admit it's also been kinda fun. Now everything is getting to feel like it's mine... and I know where and how everything is.
Our home is supposed to foreclose on February 5th, but we are working with a HUD approved company, Take Charge America, who is helping us negotiate with B of A to get a temporary modification. If we are able to make the payments for a certain amount of months, then they will do a permanent modification. That's the idea, anyway, and that is what I'm praying will happen. We may not know until a week or less before the sale date... isn't that stupid? All of us in the same boat have to jump through 1,000,000 hoops, while stressing out that we'll get denied and lose our homes... and they make us wait until the last possible second. Anyway, the guy we are working with seems pretty optimistic it will happen. Especially since I can now provide paystubs for permanent income, our guy said that is a huge plus for us.
Hubby is in the process of applying for disability, his back is now bothering him so badly that he can't stay in bed for longer than 2-3 hours a night. This has been a gradual condition that's worsened over the past 2 years, so between his foot and his back, he can't sit, stand, or lie down for more than a couple hours at a time. We have to be realistic in that no one will hire him with those kinds of limitations... and being 50 years old...with no formal education. He is super smart with electronics, music, building stuff and teaching, but his physical condition won't allow him to pursue any kind of career at this point. Apparently, the bank will also look on this favorably... as it is better than unemployment... which they don't see as permanent income.
On the DIL front, her attitude is a bit better, her son isn't melting down as often, so things aren't too bad at home right now... of course I'm gone 9 hours a day so maybe I don't see much of it. I feel SO SORRY for my hubby, who has to be trapped in the house constantly (which is driving him crazy), and SHE is there 99% of the time (instead of working and contributing to the household she's freeloading from). It must be a nightmare.
Christmas was pretty good, my MIL came out on Christmas Eve day, and I was heading the opposite direction to my mom's house...LOL. Really though, money was so tight that my mom and sister rented a car for me to drive to my mom's house where my sister was visiting, to be with them Christmas Eve. It was a 4 hour drive each way, and I've never been away from my hubby overnight before for something for myself. He used to have to leave for a week at a time when we were first married and he was in a band, but I've never left him for anything. I never would have left him on Christmas Eve either, but his mom was there, so I thought it would be ok. I came home Christmas Day, tired but happy. I want to do that again soon, and spend more time out there. It was really fun. When my grandson came home from his dad's that afternoon, we had a good time watching him open his presents. He was really into Christmas this year and it was cool. We'd put a little money away to spend on him for Christmas, and MIL brought a bunch of presents too.
So... all in all... I'd have to say that this year is starting out pretty well, and I am cautiously optimistic. If nothing else, I am stronger for all our trials and tribulations, when I'd never dreamed that I had more strength to tap into.
Life is full of surprises, eh?
P.S. Wellbutrin is a wonderful thing....LMAO :-)